Tags archives: PTSD

  • Sick Kids Mom PTSD

  • We're back home and on the mend. It was a bit of a tough transistion, getting nursing care arranged for both at home and at school and so Lily was away from school longer than we had hoped, but she went back late last week and has been as happy as they come ever since. She's had some rough moments where she has to ride[...]
  • Time Heals

  • Time is a funny thing.  For the past few weeks Jess and I have been constantly reminding ourselves that "time heals" - we knew that we just needed to give Lily and her body some time to get over this bout of...well, whatever it was.  And of course we were right, but those weeks felt long and it was sometimes hard to ke[...]
  • Today is Hard

  • I'm walking around in a fog - or worse, on the constant edge of tears.  Every time I allow myself time to just stop I end up back there and I can't tear myself away.  I know that I've joked in the past about my PTSD state post Lily's cardiac arrest.  I know that I've talked about how I feel like a failure to her and to[...]
  • Happy Heart, Happy Birthday

  • Cardiology came and went.  They sedated, they scanned, they saw, they pronounced her heart strong and her lung pressures stable.  They said to come back in a year.  It was music to our ears. There was a moment, one breath-holding, heart stopping moment.  While Lily was conked out from the sedation (which was rare in[...]
  • Push Hard

  • A mom post tonight... I love my job. I really and truly do. Like becoming a mother, it was the one thing I always knew that I wanted to do. I would spend my childhood summers planted at the pool and when asked I would tell everyone that I wanted to be a lifeguard. To take that childhood passion and actually be able to[...]
  • Where I Leave Off

  • One last mom post tonight before Lily returns and tells you all about her "re-birthday" party, her trip to neurology this week and our big plans for the rest of the summer. But until then.... Most of you know that Jess and I are very different - sometimes as different as two people can be. While undoubtedly frustratin[...]
  • A Mom's Look Back

  • A mom post tonight.... The pyjamas she was wearing are still in Jess' drawer.  I don't remember when they came off - if Jess did it before I got to the room, or if I pulled them half off to stare at her chest.  There are nights when I can't close my eyes without seeing it - the newly sealed bones coming together to fo[...]
  • The Worst Day

  • Lily can't update her blog right now, as she has had a very bad 36 hours.  We are back at Sick Kids in the PICU (Paediatric Intensive Care Unit).  We don't yet know what's wrong or how we ended up here, but this is where we are. This morning, at 7:30am, from in my sleep, I heard Jess (I can't speak in code right now) [...]