Tags archives: Hope

  • My Second Act

  • It's been a year.  A year since I've written anything.  I don't just mean here, but anywhere; a full year since I've put pen to paper or fingers to keyboard and written anything more meaningful than a thank-you card for Lily's teachers at the end of the school year. I couldn't begin to tell you why, I don't even thi[...]
  • Another Brick in the Wall

  • My dad is gone.  I've avoided saying those exact words and typing those exact words, but those are the words that keep swirling around in my head.  My dad is gone. I've been quiet about his diagnosis, his short but courageous journey, for reasons that I don't even entirely understand myself.  For someone who shares [...]
  • I Want...

  • Some years it really is easier and then, out of what feels like total left field, it's a bad year again. I've written about this week before and how my mind is completely distracted, but I don't think I've talked about the weight of it, the physical ache, the near-constant feel of tears behind my eyes. The want to just[...]
  • Holding Tight to the Love

  • One of the thoughts that I push aside most often is how Lily's relationships will change as her friends get older.  We just spent a wonderful weekend away with some friends and one of my favourite parts was watching their son interact with Lily.  He has loved her since the minute she entered our lives and while so far [...]
  • Be A Goal Digger

  • Next week will be the culmination of the last few months for me.  There have been things going on behind the scenes - nothing with Lily, just some time spent reflecting on how to become the person that I see in myself versus the person that I portray to the rest of the world.  It's taken a lot of time, a lot of soul se[...]
  • The Day of Thinks

  • Some part of me thought that we wouldn't get here.  I wouldn't let myself actually look this far into the future and see this day.  This 5 year old girl standing before me, strong and growing and shining with light, I didn't think I'd see her. It's given me new hope, if we can reach 5, which seemed so far away and i[...]
  • Worried Voice vs. Mamma Voice

  • So, Lily  has had a walker since she began junior kindergarten last year. We've had some success with it, mostly because the staff at her school are incredible and just keep pushing her.  She would take a few steps but for the most part would just use both feet at the same time to push herself forward.  She could only [...]
  • Welcome to the World

  • I had the pleasure of photographing the brand new baby Matteo last week and what joy this little man has brought to his momma.  When we did some maternity shots a couple of weeks ago, the excitement and anticipation were radiating from her like beams of sunshine and now that he's arrived, you can tell their world is co[...]
  • Pure

  • There is a stigma to special needs adoptions, but it's not what you may think.  The stigma belongs to the birth parents, labelled as selfish, heartless or weak. It's an easy assumption to make, a way to blame.  When we first got the call about Lily, those were the thoughts that ran through my head.  What kind of person[...]
  • We're On the Next Chapter

  • The last of my guest voices is an incredible photographer, Kelly Searle, who I'm still hoping will decide to make an impromptu trip to Toronto one day when it just happens to be gorgeous outside so that I can use her incredible talent to capture some new photos of Lily, but I digress.  Kelly is also the mamma to Dolly,[...]
  • Brotherly Love

  • Down Syndrome Awareness Month has come to an end, but luckily here in Canada, the first week of November is Down Syndrome Awareness week.  So while a cold that has kicked my butt kept me from finishing my project for 31 for 21 project for this year, I'm happy to bring it into November as well. As you know, I've been[...]
  • Jax's World

  • Shortly after Lily came home, Jess was talking to a woman who said to her, "I've heard about people like you."  A little taken aback, for a moment Jess wasn't entirely sure which of the "like you" categories the woman was referring to - lesbians or parents who had chosen a child with Down Syndrome.  The woman was refer[...]