Category archives: Giggle & Hugs

  • My Second Act

  • It's been a year.  A year since I've written anything.  I don't just mean here, but anywhere; a full year since I've put pen to paper or fingers to keyboard and written anything more meaningful than a thank-you card for Lily's teachers at the end of the school year. I couldn't begin to tell you why, I don't even thi[...]
  • Another Brick in the Wall

  • My dad is gone.  I've avoided saying those exact words and typing those exact words, but those are the words that keep swirling around in my head.  My dad is gone. I've been quiet about his diagnosis, his short but courageous journey, for reasons that I don't even entirely understand myself.  For someone who shares [...]
  • I Want...

  • Some years it really is easier and then, out of what feels like total left field, it's a bad year again. I've written about this week before and how my mind is completely distracted, but I don't think I've talked about the weight of it, the physical ache, the near-constant feel of tears behind my eyes. The want to just[...]
  • Lost

  • "The truth is, there are lots of times where I feel completely lost in how to feel about all of this, in how to prepare, in how to parent, in how to process experiences, in how to advocate." – Kelle Hampton There are some people who think we should have this all figured out; that because we chose adoption, because we [...]
  • To Witness Love

  • You might think, from the title, that I'm about to tell you how incredible it was to witness the birth of my new niece, Penelope, this week.  You're not entirely wrong.  Being allowed to be in that room, to share this moment with my sister - my other half - is beyond anything I can put into words.  To be one of the fir[...]
  • Sick Kids Mom PTSD

  • We're back home and on the mend. It was a bit of a tough transistion, getting nursing care arranged for both at home and at school and so Lily was away from school longer than we had hoped, but she went back late last week and has been as happy as they come ever since. She's had some rough moments where she has to ride[...]
  • Home, Second Home

  • It's been a pretty crazy three days around our house.  So let me tell you a little story about what I call, "When There Is One Too Many Holes". Once upon a time... On Thursday past, Jess and I noticed that the area around Lily's g-tube stoma was looking rather angry.  It was red and raised and clearly something w[...]
  • Holding Tight to the Love

  • One of the thoughts that I push aside most often is how Lily's relationships will change as her friends get older.  We just spent a wonderful weekend away with some friends and one of my favourite parts was watching their son interact with Lily.  He has loved her since the minute she entered our lives and while so far [...]
  • Be A Goal Digger

  • Next week will be the culmination of the last few months for me.  There have been things going on behind the scenes - nothing with Lily, just some time spent reflecting on how to become the person that I see in myself versus the person that I portray to the rest of the world.  It's taken a lot of time, a lot of soul se[...]
  • Keep Love Alive

  • "T'is the season when the saints can employ us to spread the news about peace and to keep love alive." 10 points to you if you knew that was from A Muppets Christmas Carol, but another 10 points if you know that for all of the Christmas songs and carols out there, this is the one line that always takes my breath away.[...]
  • The Day of Thinks

  • Some part of me thought that we wouldn't get here.  I wouldn't let myself actually look this far into the future and see this day.  This 5 year old girl standing before me, strong and growing and shining with light, I didn't think I'd see her. It's given me new hope, if we can reach 5, which seemed so far away and i[...]
  • Worried Voice vs. Mamma Voice

  • So, Lily  has had a walker since she began junior kindergarten last year. We've had some success with it, mostly because the staff at her school are incredible and just keep pushing her.  She would take a few steps but for the most part would just use both feet at the same time to push herself forward.  She could only [...]